One day when I have a family, I really want a "family" which oriented based on love, caring and respect.

That's simple, that's difficult.



Just heard from my mum that my sister is having a sever pneumonia with persistent fever for 3 days.She is taking different types of medication recently. I don't know that until I call home, as if every time when my house have something big going on I am not a part to "know". Kind of having a bad feeling to
miss something.

I figured out I usually like to do things for others but not myself.

The reason is usually not "me".

Because this and that and others said.


The feeling of "support" by a specific others just don't make me feel secure. What if I lots this support sometimes.

I have adapted.




After all I am still not able to live freely away from this shadow. Oh boy.

After all, I might end up in Camrose again.

It's not the end but the beginning.